you never have enough

he's 3and a half. he said he wants me to come drop him to school today but i stayed home. wondered what on earth was getting me down and then realized, its many things, but one big one is seeing his sad little face, and big almond eyes, submitting to the car seat belts, wanting me when i'd said no. brings me to the point, when do we ever have enough of our children. and before we know it, they've had it with us. the river only flows downwards, my grandmom used to say. one day he wont look back. but now he;s craning his neck and i'm out there with him, as much as i can, and even that'snot enough.